mawwie

hi...

2003-07-05T09:16:25Z

well..theres so much to tell everyone..ill call everyone and tell them whats up..i miss you all..i guess its just me but it seems like ive drifted a lot..which is my fault not calling ppl and stuff but shits been going on and ya..well hmm..top 5 list of mollys life!! lol!!
5. i might have to have back surgery for those of you who know about my back, they found something else wrong and ive alrady started physical thearopy so that could have possibly fucked it up more.. but i don't know yet i have to go get a mri soon
4. yes im still single..i am such a nerd
3 im also an idiot..im in summer school..me and katie keeping it real!
2. my fourth of july has rocked
1. im calling all of you tomarow..including beaver,katie and dustin..we all need to talk!!
god i miss you guys talk to u in a couple hours!!
much love..molly

drinkin the good stuff

2003-05-17T02:56:14Z

what up at a party right now, i just felt like gettin away from it for a while. down at keiths just chillen got some cool kids here. and then the one couple which just happens the only girl here whos my best friend.. so its a little akward. Im so sorry to all of you in Expressions cause i won't be able to come! so good luck to all of you. anyways what up to all of you seems like we don't see each other anymore. after laramie got out.. and then all the rest of since whenever we were all last together. well anyways im kinda rambling im not all with it. well im gonna go.... so tap that to all of you who have something to tap tonight! ttyl love you all. molly

women with powertools!

2003-05-08T17:36:00Z

hey guys...last night at rehersal the play was awesome and afterwords i got to hang out and just relax. I really like some of the kids on this cast there really cool and just something different then what im used to at East. Today at the show opening nigh HELL YA there will be my little fan club Leigh, Zak, Collin ,mabey Keith, Angela my mommy and her good friend Nancy. Im not sure who else though, im excited for this crowd and just showing this play to people. This play needs to be taught, and i think we are going to one hell of a job! anyways.. today lunch was good. i got to feed collin and keith that was funny! anyways hmm what else im pretty tired but now im enjoying one of the god damn best bands ever in computer apps. THE FUCKING BEATLES and max these guys fucking rock accept that! mk had to get that out he pissed me off this morning...east ppl on the cast!! you guys ROCK i love you guys!! beaver- thankyou for being my future murderer and scaring the shit out of me..Dustin thankyou for all your random comments and looks..you keep my laughin..Katie thanks for being my girl! freshman rock.. I love you guys!! happy trails..Molly*

Ms Beedle at your service

2003-05-06T17:48:09Z

well well well...last night was intense..some of the scenes in Laramie Project are intense! but thats all im telling you im not selling out to the cheap bastards that dont want to spend 10$ on one hell of a play..lol jk!! i just don't want to ruin anything for anyone. anyways.. hmm todays been CRAZY! at lunch my friend Leigh slammed her bottle of Diet Pepsi down on to a table and it exploded everywhere! It was sooo funny it got all over these people all over 2 tables and was spraying like a fountain! it was sooo funny. we had to bust out the mop and stuff. wow funny! anyways ive been checking up on everyones LJ. and wow..what the fuck to the conversation with max...holy shit that pissed me off so bad! ugh i just want to go up to me him and be like what the fuck! what the fuck!anyways.. well its nice to read everyones journal and see whats up....Marnie and Katie so confused about Expressions what the hell are we doing! lol please let me know..to all of you out there come and see The laramie Project
at the community playhouse....thursday 7:00pm
Friday 7:00pm and 10:00pm
Saturday 7:00pm

ITS A DAM GOOD SHOW!! love to all Molly*

the cripple has left the building

2003-04-28T17:28:12Z

mmmk... so this weekend..friday 8-12 nothing happened..snuck out of friends house..lots happened..actually not that much all fun and games...saturday was greek easter so we went to church for the seriously KICK ASS service that starts at midnihgt. My family got home at 3 after the party downstairs, then the youth went to Georges house - he just bout a house he's 22. and i didn't get home till 5:30am. God damn tired..meh well haven't heard anything about Laramie latley..hopefully the director wil call soon meh..nothing to get worked up about. dustin i really enjoyed our talk last night. wow we have the most interesting things to talk about and i love it! i prayed for u and you know who!! don't worry god loves me lol!! well ya'll im going to sleep now in computer apps.
love to all Molly*

hes a DUSTIN!!- ahh memory from the play

2003-04-22T17:50:30Z

hey- the title..anyone remember that? When dustin held my little old fashion duster thing and then said he was a dustin..hahaha good times! anyways.. i read everyones journal today..and the ever so happy tune by Simon and Garfunkle (don't know how to spell that) came to mind

Slow down you move to fast
youve got to make the moring last
just sitten on the cobble stones
lookin for fun and feeling groovy
all is groovy
life i love ya all is groovy...

anyways i think that all the people i know are ready for summer..school FUCKEN sucks..im sick of being with people that i don't like everyday. Im sure everyone else is to. To everyone that feels like shit right now..make sure your thinking of yourself..something i don't do enough..make sure that your having fun and take things into consideration, don't let someone push you around and stomp all over you. i know not all the decisions ive made are good, no shit, but i had to do it, i mean i have to make some bad decisions, and then i need ppl help telling me,and helping me figure out that it wasen't cool. I have parents to tell me whats good for me and not, but i need friends that are there for me and back me up,and ive seriously found that this year, from the play, to new people ive met this year. so thankyou to all of you, who have impacted my life. to everyone else..support your friends and help them when we fall, but remeber everyone has there own set of parents, but not everyone has a group of friends. ....im really confused with a lot of stuff thats been going on. This journal enrty is to anyone! not just people i know. i hope when you read this you think of a time that your friends have just sucked but there just really trying to help you out..then think about a time taht you might have taken something a little far, and made things a bigger deal then they were.i know how you feel

ANYWAYS... for all the shit going on now..im so ready for summer..im ready to get the hell away from Mr. Spahn and highschool for a couple months. I LOVE YOU ALL!!! molly

gangsta!

2003-04-21T17:22:18Z

hey well this weekend...hung out with the usual kids, leigh,kriger,carts, wheels, collin,balls, landers, junigen, alien head, meh and everyone else.. what else dustin i must share something with you..kinda exciting meh..ill call you!! hey to everybody that i haven't talked to all weekend im sorry if i didn't weekend was crazy. easter was cool..i have a new cousin..Cassidy..i held her for like an hour shes so cute!! She's a month old tomarow..she weighs 7lbs..little!! well i g2g beofre pella gets pissed! love to all! Molly*

nerd

2003-04-17T17:21:15Z

hey well im in class again..last ight was awesome. I met with the director and he seems awesome..and ive got somewhat of a grasp on how the show ill go. Me and Katie and Beav all just hung out at the mill so i good stare at the guy behind the counter.. katie you know what im talking about..the night was made up of giggles,reminessing, and making fun of each other! it was fun.. im not sure what else to say...volleyball is finally over for this season.. and thats about it..g2g love to all and happy trail..molly

ugh boys and school

2003-04-11T17:28:29Z

well to update you all on my life lets see here...sarah don't worry i didn't do anything dumb that night and i didn't get in trouble..ive had a reaccuring depressing figure come back into my life. The one guy i fell in love with, we never actually went out but we told each other we loved each other and truley ment it. He was one of the only guys ive ever known that actually wanted to be involved with me,my past, my future and my dreams, and me with him, he plays in a band and his voice is nothing far from amazing,if you asked me what went wrong, i cound't tell you, we just drifted apart without the title Boyfriend & Girlfriend. He's asked me to go to his concert tonight and i will be asking him to come to Laramie Project..we watched that movie together at his dads house over Xmas break and hes totally for gay rights so i think it hit home on him pretty hard. I think he will really enjoy that performance..well ya and #4 on Evanesence everyword reminds me of him for those of you who have that cd..well i g2g get back to class..love to all and happy trails
love ya molly

aww relief once again

2003-04-09T17:56:04Z

Hey well haven't written since beofre the weekend..Friday night what can i say i don't rememeber and im telling the truth, hugged the toliet that night..way to much for this 118lbs girl. Hopefully won't experience that for a while again. Saturday still felt like shit! umm hung out at home mom went to the bar..what can i say it runs in the family. Sunday went to church and Laramie Project tryouts..Monday didn't go to school needed sleep desperatley!! Tuesday director waits till 10 o clock to call..i had been in tears thanks Katie and Dustin for all your support! I love you guys.. so ya today..i had cramps in the morning being a women sucks sometimes.. i think 2 of my friends are coming over today after school and we're going to go rent Laramie Project. They really need to see it before they see the play.. i don't know how they will handle it....hmm it could get weird and ill cry but they need to see it. anyways in computer apps really old bitchy sub wow shes mean..well im gonna go and read everyone elses journals....hope to see some of you soon, and some of you who ive heard so much about but just haven't met yet during rehersals soon! love to all and happy trails....Mawwie!

girls... in english class! ahh

2003-04-04T18:29:54Z

I hate girls that are to good for pointless movies
I hate conservitive girls
I hate cakefaces
I hate girls that try to hard
I hate girls that don't laugh out loud
I hate girls that are hypocrits
I hate girls that do what their told all the time
I hate girls that cant stand thinking about the word naked, i like being naked lol
I hate girls that judge
I hate girls that make fun of other girls because their weight
I hate girls who don't have any self confidence
I hate girls that are obbsesive
I hate girls that can't realize the fucking truth
I hate girls that think there better than other ppl because they have older friends..whoopdie dooo for them cause i do too
i hate girls that stand in someone elses shadow..make your own shadow!
I hate girls that fist fight..it dosen't make you look tough
i hate fake girls!
i know a girl who posseses all these qualities..shes in my english class and she sits behind me, and she pissed me off so bad... today i wrote down all this stuff that i din't like about her..lol anyways other than that today has been good! i can't wait for school to be out! ugh time gos slow..well i g2g happy trails and love to all! molly*

lalala

2003-04-03T18:22:55Z

well today has been a pretty good day, me being a car owner and all lol!! it was great reading your journal Beaver!! about me and katie i laughed when i read that for 10 min straight.anyways lunch was much better today and i laughed my ass off. I get to drive my car tonight. so everybody watch out! ha jk im a good driver.. well i g2g happy trails and love to all molly*

oh baby

2003-04-03T04:44:47Z

hey..well its official i own a car!! hell ya ..its a 94 oldsmobile achieva..white 4 door power everthing so ya im excited and i get it tomarow..well tired and stoked about the car..ps collar bone still hurts i duno whats up with that..good day today found out the crush think im "fucking cool" is what his bud told me he said about me..so i guess thats good lol
well im gonna go crash
love to all...happy trails lol katie s.

school..

2003-04-02T18:21:08Z

lunch was much better today catually sat with people that socialized..about the car..94 oldmile something..its white..not the prettiest thing in the world but meh it will do. i actually think we might be buying it to..ill kepp everyone updated! lol.. hmm last night i popped something in my collar bone at volleyball and now im in more pain than last night..including the massive bruises on my legs..damn sports.. wore my slippers to school today ..people either really liked them or didn't like them at all..meh what are you gonna do ...well i g2g love you all molly*

aww the car headache

2003-04-02T00:53:22Z

hey...well trama at the house right now foud a car for me and people are going crazy..anyways wrote this today during algebra..katie s! tell me what you think!

Skin Deep
and its the end
we've finally hit the fork in the road
while you scream and stitch and puke up life
will we ever see the shining light
and tells us it will be alright
laying down late and night
and you sit there with your bloody knife
and stare at what you've done
and you don't want it all to come to an end
just make time stop and start again
a new begining
the sun is rising and the stars are dimming
emotions are at horizon
strpped love is flowing throgh my vains
today when you get lost, and you sit alone and pray
all the searchers will search no more
and the prayers will speak loud to the lord
and i will not let you down much more
so scream and stitch and puke up life
crawl up the windy side of the slide
hit the ground before sun reawches sky
and follow sighns of foggy nights
and hold you breath as you shake with fright
let eveyone know what you deserve
don't give up till you feel the curve
and your mind will lead you to the right place
so scream and stitch and puke up life
and tell yourself you'll be alright
swing swings and cut in line
humanity is only skin deep

tell me what you think love you all molly*

girls suck!

2003-04-01T18:22:50Z

hey, in computer apps again. Just got done with lunch and holy shit this would have to be one of the worst ones yet. i hate the people i associate with at lunch, there all my old friends and i don't know why i just can't move on, mabey fear of embarresment sitting by yourself, or mabey when i look around at lunch everyone seems to be so happy..im not depressed cause i don't feel this way any other time, just then. I can't believe how cruel and lame there converstations are, and how there laughter is indulged by making fun of each other or other losers and using the words "gay" and "queer" and what the fuck is that bitch think shes doing. Lunch has gotten to the pointe of i don't talk i don't laugh i don't do anything really but sit and walk and listen, quite sad actually. none of my real friends have my lunch so im stuck with them. i don't know how much more i can take, 8 1/2 more weeks then no more fucking school lunches. ill have a car next year and considering that i live 2 blocks away ill be going home quite frequently..thank god. i turn 16 on the first day of school next year so i won't have to put up with this shit. Today im going to go and look at a car..a 95 ford something LX its really nice and cute so im excited. well i g2g hope everyones day is better than mine..happy trails! lol molly*

once again in class

2003-03-31T18:21:25Z

hey, had absolutley no time last night to type. Placed 2nd in the volleyball tournament in Crete yesterday. It was cool,we started at 2:00pm and didn't get done till 10ish. Man long die and the foot is throbbing..lunch sucked today! weird friends going ape shit on each other..relived by crush, went and hung out with him..meh with that..wish it was still brake! didn't relize school is so fake until your out of it for a while and then come back to it! blah!!oh well g2g back to computer apps yeppie! im almost learning as much as i did in here as i did in Koesters intro class! ahh fun stuff!
ttyl love you all molly

makin money hell ya

2003-03-30T05:40:36Z

just got home from babystitting..raking in the cash oh ya..ah massive pary again tonight but i can't go, which is probly good keeping me out of trouble till im 16 right sarah?? lol ..ya babysitting tonight cutest little girl that i'v babysat for like a year now, we were reading books and then she fell asleep on me ahh i know cute...shes like 18 months old and her name is Izabelle..Izzy..ya adorable..parts of being a mom are gonna be cool...anyways dreaming of chicken..lol dustin...shh keep the plan on the dL...anyways tired!! and mixed feelings about crush i hate boys so damb confusing...i have a volleybal tournament tomarow in Crete hooray for me not! well im gonna go crash...love ya Molly*

aww..headache

2003-03-29T17:38:50Z

well lets see here..hung out with my lil crush last night, that was fun! ill give you a lil description of the night...8 people in an acura..computer porn!!...3 peoples different house, and a nice little headache(...)lol! ..so hmm ya last night was crazy but it was pretty conservitive considering who i was hanging out with..o and there was dumpster burning in there too..well im tired and i got home around 12 so im gonna go crash some more ..love ya molly...ps parents are so oblivious at least mine are

oh boy

2003-03-26T06:24:38Z

well you think i would have learned my lesson, i have fallen for yet another boy..and yet once again he seems perfect! he plays in a band..guitar seigh! lol katie s. you know who im talking about but shh! keep it o the DL dawg lol give me a call i miss you..anyways hey to the cast i love you guys and miss you all we need to get together soon..hung out with mr. random tonight dustin ..good times..dogs peeing,the stones,and even puppets what more could i ask for lol! u rock babe..what else..im up in la la land for this kid..can't say his name though..still a secret were not daiting yet but we've got plans for friday and when he asked me, you just get that boost of confidnece you know what i mean? meh..today was defintley a very mood swing day..spending the day with my dad..AHH thats all i can say and tears many many tears..then dustin, back to dad...secret admirer FUCK HORMONES! lol you know what im talking about..excuse all this im tired as fuck, ive been sleeping on an inflatible mattress for the last 2 nights sound confortable huh? ok well my foot hurts i think i might have broken a bone acutally..damn greek dancing..barefoot..oh well gonna go get some ice for the foot and go to bed...ttyl love you all
- molly

meh

2003-03-26T04:33:39Z

hey haven't written in a while..been out of town visiting family... anyway got board wrote some stuff tell me what you think..
day dream
what is that we pine for
andslave for all our needs
can it be that all our actions
were symblolic dreams
when the sen sets and the moon follows
what is that we see
have you taken them in
and made their form over and over again
all the paintings on my wall, drawn free handed
won't be sold as art
what s picasso
did he freely pain from his heart
and show of all his wounds and scars
when can i fall into a mountain
made of icecream
and when will prince charming rescue me from
my castle in the neigbors tree
eternity will set me free
unlatch me from my sinful thoughts
induldge me in your pain
enlighten me to see my future
as they call my name when he calls my name
when i rise above this awful time and place
will i follow in their footprints
or will i make them all mine
unlatch me, induldge me, enlighten me
then they'll call my name
- molly

cheers of depression
are the blunt of my jokes
tears of joy
are fashionable accesories
whats the faith anymore
his dreams are obsenities
born into a world
catogorized as free
the defintion is bewildering
take your anger and make it strength
can we crush the world he sees
shoe shine of our soul
is something we need
but all we buy
are brand name sanataries
hooded jackets by the thousands
somewhere he sees freedom
invasions for there peace
winding roads bring the end
brand new becomes ancient
and ancient is non exisiting
still stars are shimmering
co-executive idiots
will disenagrate soon
old rockers are present icons
worshiped and envied here
to young to really have lived
yet to old to stay inside safe
faces the world for the first time
burned his eyes you could say
doorbell ditching used to be sinning
now mass murdering equals winning
new jacket new friends
yet same enemy as before
somethings never change
- molly...randomness feeling toards war and feelings of being a soldier meh...sorry about the spelling I SUCK!! so tell me what you think!!

aww in class again

2003-03-21T19:05:03Z

well once again im stuck in computer apps. seems like this is the only time i have to update this thing. the banquet was fun, it was cool to see everyone again.and i didnt even expect to get something passed down to me, so that was really cool! thanks guys! hmm what else the war has started..i hope things go ok with that, protesting the war is fine because obvioulsy no one wants us to go to war, but i don't want to happen like what happened during Nam', dont make the soldiers feel like the bad people, there doing what there country asked them to do, after these men and women come back from this war, there gonna be in bad shape, they've probly killed people, have had friends died and ya i just don't want these soldiers to feel like the bad guys.. anyways now that i've had the oppurtunity to share my opinion (probly sounding like the ramblings of an old veteran) i better get back to computer apps!! yippee!!

in class..blah!

2003-03-19T19:30:28Z

hey everybody! i have had no time to write in my journal! constant headache for the last 5 days and not able to eat anything!! ah it sucks! tonight i have the drama banquet that will be cool to see everybody together again, could be kinda sad. This weeks been kinda weird, been in a daze mabey cause ive felt like SHIT!! meh oh well..im in computer apps right now someone shoot me please! so boring, working on data base, but il listining to Evenasence or however you spell it..so relaxing well i g2g class is almost over.. Love ya! molly*

what a day

2003-03-09T05:30:53Z

hey, well today was somewhat depressing...east made it to the championship for girls basketball and we lost to our rivals fucking SE by four pointes. We're gonna be damn good next year though. Im really glad i have school spirit it just gives me that reason to play harder on the court or stop what im doing to watch highlights on the news or something i duno im jus rambeling. so then tonight i went to VI with the crew and bowling. it was most of the cast and crew and then...beavers friends lol its those guys are great. i always have an awesome time when im with them and some of time i don't have a good time when im with my "friends" it just depeds on the day i guess. anyone that reads this have you ever met someone that is nice but you just can't stand them,everything they do annoys you. i have that problhem lol and i don't know what to do about it ANY ADVICE??? everyone else is going out tonight and as usual i have to stay at home because for the 2nd night volleyball has interfiered! i have a tournament tomrow at 8:30 am. well dustin we missed you tonight. if things work out hopefully the "gang" will hang out tomarow..well i dont want to keep butch waiting ( ppl that know who butch is you know what im talkin about...to others it isen't as it seems!! lol..) ill just go walk and laugh beaver and katie!! ahh what a night!! LIVE IT UP..OR put someone in carpet and roll them down a hill dustin!

hanging at the crib

2003-03-08T00:53:10Z

hey, well its about 6:30. Today i got out of school early to go the second game of state for girls basketball. WE WON!! we're going to the championship! im so excited cause some of the players are my buds! and its just cool that something from your school is going to something big like state. Tonight i have volleyball from 8-10 BLAH! oh well ..some people are going to chicago tonight and i wanted to go, but once again volleyball gets in the way. oh man i feel bad for dustin, hes gonna have a long night! ha anyways sublime is really relaxing. im having a bean buirito tonight mmm!! well im sorry for all of you that have to read this cause nothings really going on!! ok well im gonna go and eat so LOVE YOU ALL! - molly*